Words

A woman I know has just learned the she is unexpectedly expecting a little late life surprise. After 10 years with her man, she thought such a thing was impossible.

I heard her tell all this to another woman today. A woman I don't know.

"It happens when it's supposed to," the stranger said. "When the time is right."

Then she recounted how, after years of trying she "quit" trying. That's when she got pregnant.

I listened to the conversation and bit my tongue.

And that hurt just as much as the words.

Does this mean that I was never meant to be a mother? Because I never was able to get pregnant, despite years of trying, was the Universe or God trying to tell me I didn't deserve to be a mom? Did I then thwart the universe by finding the child I do have?

That's what I wanted to say. "Is that what you mean?"

And how, exactly, does one quit trying? Last I heard, when you stop having sex you stop having babies.

I'm just sayin'......