Thursday, February 10, 2011

Words

A woman I know has just learned the she is unexpectedly expecting a little late life surprise. After 10 years with her man, she thought such a thing was impossible.

I heard her tell all this to another woman today. A woman I don't know.

"It happens when it's supposed to," the stranger said. "When the time is right."

Then she recounted how, after years of trying she "quit" trying. That's when she got pregnant.

I listened to the conversation and bit my tongue.

And that hurt just as much as the words.

Does this mean that I was never meant to be a mother? Because I never was able to get pregnant, despite years of trying, was the Universe or God trying to tell me I didn't deserve to be a mom? Did I then thwart the universe by finding the child I do have?

That's what I wanted to say. "Is that what you mean?"

And how, exactly, does one quit trying? Last I heard, when you stop having sex you stop having babies.

I'm just sayin'......

2 comments:

  1. I think when God tells you you cannot have a child the normal way, all he's telling you is that you have more love than a regular mother. Every (sane, sober) mother loves her own flesh and blood unconditionally, but it takes an exceptional mother to love someone who is not of their own DNA with the same intensity. He just didn't want you to waste it when someone else needed it so much! :)

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  2. I like to think that God said, "Lori. I have a special one picked out just for you. You just have to wait and be patient. It will be worth it."

    Thanks for being one of my loyal nine!

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